Trying to hold onto a breath without a sigh,
As I slowly die each passing day,
My shadows lead as I follow,
Chasing after my skeletons through
Open gates into the dark
To save me from drowning in myself,
But still my thoughts pull me under
Dragging me further into the void,
It feels like an avalanche.
I swallow my faith
In wait to choke on my breath,
Patience sold time away
Since promises broke,
And words were swallowed in the screams,
Heaven knows but hell still seeks,
How much can every inch of breath cost?
Perhaps a lifetime regret.
Still digging my way out of the grave of broken dreams,
That buried me with a glittering shovel
And I thought it would be just a dirge for a memory
But the mourning never stopped,
Tears welled up the eyes
And am starting to love the pain, how it hurts
But my Intuitions could be misguided
To just let it be,
Even if am drowning,
Just make sure am in the deep end.
Owing a smile to the agony
To settle down for a massacre in my dreams,
Hoping never to wake-up
To another misfit and numb smiles,
I’d rather fade into the shadows,
Disappear without a trace
Than stick to this endless rat race,
Chasing broken echoes
That leave me twisted in shadows.
A smile for a mask to replace the pain, with something numb,
Running in circles to feed the darkness with glitches of emptiness…
It never stops,
It digs deep inside
Like an open grave is all I’ve become,
Camping in dead silence
With a hollow of coldness inside,
Am just sinking.
©Teddy Temple 2018